No matter what. I was preparing for your biggest surprise. For months I was battling in creating this surprise.
I would have shocked you. You would have seen what I ‘d do for my Queen.
I know it took a lot. I saw the signs, I felt you. I was scared with everything, but whenever you were present in my life, I was at ease, it felt my secure haven, and I swifted away from the state of terror and action.
Here I am sitting on a bench somewhere on this planet, looking at the moon asking how far you are from me. Even if you are miles and miles away I feel you, it seems like you are in the same room. I don’t say the situation we are in good, I want to work it out, even if it means we aren’t meant to see each other, I keep feeling you, and hearing you.
I cant move on.
Cause I want you.
I want to spend the rest of my life with you.
I want all the pain and all the happiness.
Might not tomorrow or in a week, or in a year.
I am putting everything on the line. I am not asking you to do the same. Nevertheless, you may not hear what I am trying to say and I will have to move on, cutting deep inside me, and accept that this is for love. Many things could have been prevented, that is true. I am already hating every second,
and I am trying to embrace it,
embrace your change,
embrace my change, scared shitless that you won’t comeback,
because I am scared to be abandoned once more.
Sorry for putting this on your shoulder. I should trust love more, I am trying to since we met, its a fight, its a long process.
Please understand I never wanted to hurt you, I always saw your potential. Always said it. Look at you
I didn’t know,
it would cost me to watch from the dark corner...
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